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Reflection

April 20, 2011

It’s funny; you get to a certain place and you begin to reflect back on your life. What am I doing, and why am I doing this? Do I like my job or is it just a means to get by? What do I enjoy; what makes me HAPPY?

Well if you are like me these were loaded questions. It seems in our society in which we live women pick up the pieces and do what we have to, to help our families survive.  We work at jobs we really do not like to make sure our kids have what they need. We come home from a long day to find our 2nd job waiting: cooking dinner, cleaning the house, washing the dishes piled in the sink and washing clothes for the next day.  We muddle through each day, and as time goes by, we begin to forget us.  As the kids grow and become independent we begin to realize we do not remember what use to make us happy.  What did I enjoy doing?  Sometimes by the time we get to this point some of you will have survived bouts of depression, divorce, lost friends and jobs. 

Mid Life crisis is nothing more than individuals realizing that the last 10 years or so has been lived for everyone except themselves and these individuals are desperate to rediscover what makes them whole, but sometimes in this process they are so completely focused on themselves they forget the ones they love, sometimes blaming them for their unhappiness.  When truly they have allowed the world and circumstances to dictate their life.  It is time to rediscover yourself, to find those things that bring joy to your heart so you can be all that you need to be for you and your family.  Because you see, when you are struggling, it is projected over your entire family, and in return hurts them to.

This can be a slow process, and if you are like me that is sometimes (all the time) is very hard.  Once I figure out something I want immediate change.  Guess what? God does not work that way. Sometimes you feel as if you are out there all alone with no one to turn to, and the one you love the most can sometimes be the one that is hurting you the most.  In this case it can be very hard to know how to handle it or who to turn to.  It seems when you get to what feels like the bottom you then turn things over to God. What is really sad is that he has been there the whole time waiting for you to ask for help and give it all over to him.  That is the hardest part for us because we think we are in control of our lives and we don’t need any help.  That is until we reach the bottom. 

Just pray and listen God is trying to talk to you; he will lead you out, just put your trust in Him.

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    April 20, 2011 1:28 pm

    Mike

    This was very will written. Please tell your wife (you forgot to mention her name anywhere) to keep writing!

    Jeff

  2. April 20, 2011 5:08 pm

    Great reminders for me here…yes, keep inviting her into your world and you go into hers, and this was a great means of doing that–a shared enterprise this journey is and it is obvious the two of you are sharing it together! I too want to tell her to keep writing as well!

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